You never know how hard it can be for a couple who is trying to have a baby, until you have walked in their shoes. This is my story of how hard is was.
Two years ago this October, I found out I was going to be a mommy again! Fan and I were both scared and nervous and excited all in one. We had these feelings because we did not know how we were going to handle a two year old and a baby, but we were going to make it work. We told everyone. I had made an appointment for our first doctors visit. I had taken another test just to be sure. Then a week later it happened. I had cramps like I have never had before. I was going to the bathroom frequently because I was bleeding. By the second day I was very concerned. I called my good friend who is a nurse and explained to her what was going on. She told me what could be happening and to call my doctors office. I did. I ended up going to the ER, waiting, crying until I was in a room with just Fan. Nurse and doctor came in. I was informed I was going through a miscarriage. I had suspected it, but really did not want to believe it. It was heart breaking.
To this day I still think about what could have been, but then I know God had other plans for that baby and was not ready to let it enter our world just yet.
Fast forward to the following September. Fan and I took an extra long bike ride with some friends down one of the prettiest roads in Oklahoma. On our way back home, we took a different route than we did getting there. We came up on a blind curve and ended up having a motorcycle accident. Nobody was seriously hurt or broken. I have my first and only scars to prove it. We rode back home. I had to ride with one of the other guys as my seat on Fan's bike was not stable for me to sit on. When we got back home. We jumped in the car and went to the ER to have us checked out just in case.
Shortly after the accident I found out I was pregnant again. We were excited! But because of the miscarriage and we still had people asking about the pregnancy, we wanted to wait to tell anyone about this one. Boy was it hard. Then the last week of September, I was back in the ER, crying, waiting, crying some more. Saw the doctor and nurse. Then had an ultrasound. That's when I knew I was going through another miscarriage. What was I doing wrong? Why couldn't my body hold on to these babies?
From that point I was determined to get my body in shape and in good health so that if I do get pregnant again I was going to hold onto that baby.
We went through the healing process. Waited. Tried again, but were having a hard time. Then we stopped trying and just enjoyed our time with Eli. We bought a boat and have enjoyed it last fall and this summer as much as we could.
In July, I found out I was pregnant again. I had been taking my prenatal vitamins. I called the doctors office made my appointments and also had them order a blood test to check my HCG levels. So far so good. We actually made it to the first doctor appointment with his PA and had my levels checked again. Still good so far. I had an ultrasound done at 8 weeks and heard the little but very fast heart beat.
I am now almost 11 weeks along and am so happy. I'm being careful, eating properly, taking vitamins. And go in for my second doctors visit next week. Eli is excited but not sure what to think yet.
I love my family and my life. It's been a long hard road but we are making it. I will soon have 2 March birthday's to celebrate and couldn't be happier.
Hugs and lovies,
Fan, Sara and Elijah
Our family will grow another 2 feet in March!
We hope you read the title correctly! If not here is another clue......Come Thanksgiving look out I'll be eating for two! Or Fan + Elijah + Me & belly = 4.
Did you get it now? Yes you are correct!! We are expecting baby #2 the middle of March! We are ecstatic. I hope you don't mind that we waited so long, but due to our 2 previous miscarriages we wanted to be sure this time.
The baby's head is on the left (looks like its squished) and the body is on the right.
Did you get it now? Yes you are correct!! We are expecting baby #2 the middle of March! We are ecstatic. I hope you don't mind that we waited so long, but due to our 2 previous miscarriages we wanted to be sure this time.
The baby's head is on the left (looks like its squished) and the body is on the right.Lake. Puppies. Fireworks. Summer.
I can probably count on one hand the number of weekends that we have not been to the lake. Which is all reality is a good thing! I love the lake, our boat, spending time with family and friends. Mostly I'm getting a great tan and getting better at 2, count them, 2 water sports!! My most favorite is wake-surfing, and then wake-boarding. Eventually and gradually we are getting Eli more and more use to the water and now he has even started standing up on his board we got in Florida when we went in April. Check out some of our pictures below. Also Thumper and Harvey are getting use to being at the lake. They their own little cubby hole to lay in while out on the boat and then they also get to be outside, which they love!
Fourth of July was just recently upon us and Fan, Eli and I spent the day together. Slept in really late, went to Lowes and bought mommy a used, but new to me, fridge/freezer (pics will come soon). And then we watched fireworks at the local casino with Nana and Poppie. They were big and beautiful, not to mention we were ever so close. I mean like close enough to see the shooting ground where all the fireworks were to go off at. And despite our lack of rain over the past month, they had not major fires there. 
Despite the blistering hot Oklahoma 100+ degree heat for nearly the past month, this has been a good summer. Eli is doing more and more. Talking more and more. I love it! Just wish I was home more to spend more time with him. I love every bit of him. I love every bit of Fan too. Lately I have been looking for some land/acreage to buy so we can build a house. I really want to build a house, the way I want, with the things I want in it, because inevitably it's where we want to stay for the rest of our lives. But it's hard cause we want to stay within so far of Oklahoma City, since that is where we both work, but we don't want to be too close or too far. I want to have big enough land to have a chicken coop, maybe another farm animal, somewhere Eli and go run around and not worrying about getting to close to the street or being able to play outside whenever he wants. So we will see, we are still looking, as always. Maybe one day soon I'll find the perfect spot. Until then....
Hugs and Lovies,
Fan, Sara and Eli
Despite the blistering hot Oklahoma 100+ degree heat for nearly the past month, this has been a good summer. Eli is doing more and more. Talking more and more. I love it! Just wish I was home more to spend more time with him. I love every bit of him. I love every bit of Fan too. Lately I have been looking for some land/acreage to buy so we can build a house. I really want to build a house, the way I want, with the things I want in it, because inevitably it's where we want to stay for the rest of our lives. But it's hard cause we want to stay within so far of Oklahoma City, since that is where we both work, but we don't want to be too close or too far. I want to have big enough land to have a chicken coop, maybe another farm animal, somewhere Eli and go run around and not worrying about getting to close to the street or being able to play outside whenever he wants. So we will see, we are still looking, as always. Maybe one day soon I'll find the perfect spot. Until then....
Hugs and Lovies,
Fan, Sara and Eli
Meet Harvey!
I would like you all to meet Harvey. He is our newest mini daschund. His color is chocolate and tan dapple. He has one eye that is completely brown and the other is half blue half brown. He is lovable and he is alot fatter than Thumper. Although Harvey and Thumper get along together, there are some things that they don't want to share....some of which they need to. Thumper, well she has an only puppy complex that I hope she grows out of quickly! Harvey is slowly learning his name and potty training is just soooo much fun (can you hear the sarcasm?).
Here is Harvey:
Here is Harvey:
Here is Thumper:
5 YEARS!!!
Holy moly!! Fan and I made it to out 5 year anniversary!! Yay for us! We are both looking forward to another 100 years together. I couldn't have asked for a better husband and father to my child. He makes me happy when I am sad, makes me laugh when I don't want to. This year for our anniversary we stayed in Oklahoma and just booked a room at one of the hotels in downtown OKC, shopped for a bit, ate at Zio's, and watched a movie. Then the next day we checked out and went to the lake to do some wakeboarding and wakesurfing and camping. We had so much fun together. I don't know of a better way to spend my anniversary weekend than together doing what we love to do. My mom and dad watched Eli all weekend so we had all that much more time to do whatever and be lazy.
I love you, Fan.
Sara
I love you, Fan.
Sara
Our lastest makings
I have vowed to always involve Eli in cooking with me. No matter what it is, if he is interested in helping then I will give him things to do. Below are a few things that we have made together over the past few months.
Cheesy Broccoli and Chicken Bread Braid
Julia Child's Irish Soda Bread
Easy crepes (recipe makes like 40 of them)
Ok, granted we didn't make the milk, strawberries or, angel food cake....BUT we did make the whip cream!
Funnel Cake madness!! Almost as good as the ones at the fair.
Hugs and Lovies,
Fan, Sara, and Eli
Adventures in the Zoo {and my conclusions}
I went on Elijah's very first school trip last week for the last week of his first school year. Sad, I know, I am. He is 3 years old, but my church is also a school from K-2 through college. He has learned so much this past, I just can't believe my baby is growing up. Sad. Again. Yes. I am. Anyhow, back to the school trip........we went to the Oklahoma City Zoo. Eli and I rode with one of his class mates and his mom. We walked around the whole Zoo and had fun hanging out with Gavin and his mom, JoElla.
We had alot of fun. It was also humid and in a way a little sticky. But it was fun. I took my camera so I could get pictures and lots of them. One spot I liked the most and will probably go back to was by the flamingos and their fence. As we were walking to the Children's Zoo so the kiddos could have a little fun, Eli and I stopped beside the fence to see if we could see the flamingos a little closer and we did. It was one of those holes in the wood from where a knot had been, but it was low to the ground. So we squatted/knealt to the ground and looked through. WOW! Amazing colors and we were so close to them. The photographer in me just had to bring out the camera and snap some shots. Yep, I'll be going back to that place.
Eli and I proceeded to the Children's Zoo with the rest of our group. Of course we went to the petting zoo part so that Gavin and Eli could pet the goats. They loved it and had lots of fun. In the middle of the children's zoo they have a nice little stream/fake river where the kids and parents can walk through and play with the rocks and sand. You guessed it it was their favorite part of the day. At the very top of the stream they have a flatter area for the littler ones and it just has little fountains on the ground that they can step on or whatever. I think this is where they got the wettest. Oh well. It was hot.
It we left the Children's Zoo we took a different path to get out. One that I had long forgotten about. Since I was a kid I have always gone to the zoo but as I got older I went less and less, but now that I have a kid (who loves animals and the zoo). Well this path goes straight to the sea lion look out, which is above the sea lion water pit that you can look at below through the windows and it is also the place to see the sea lion show. Well this path, still looks like it did back when. As most of the zoo has been changing over the past years this part doesnt seem like it.
After watching the sea lions swim around for a while we decided to head down to the aquarium to look at all the fish and sea life. Well it came to a point where Eli was asking about some of the fish and what they were and the only thing I could think of was Nemo. The movie, yes that's right. My entire 'teaching' of what the fish were came from Nemo. There were explanations of Nemo's dad, Marlon, and of Dory, the puffer fish and Scarface, and I even explained about the school of fish that Marlon and Dorky come across that help find the path to Sydney. That is when I realized I know alot about the Nemo movie. Which is not the fist movie I have come to know more than most people know about. This is probably because they are Eli's favorite movies.
After being there most of the day playing, walking, talking about all the animals, walking, eating, walking and did I mention walking? We came up on one of the playgrounds for the kiddos to play around some more and wear out a bit more. Us mommies were getting tired and ready to go. Eli and I rode the marry-go-round. He rode on the Zebra and I rode the Manatee. To ride you have to buy tokens and tokens are $1 for one. Sheesh! Yes I had fun but I'd much rather just give them a few quarters since it wasn't even that long of a ride. Oh well.
Just before we left the boys wanted to see the cats. So we stopped off at the lion's hill and looked at them and then went home. Yes I know shame on us, but we were all tired. JoElla and I came to the conclusion that we like the zoo, but spending all day there is tiring and then you dont really want to go back for a while. Whereas if you go stay for a shorter period of time like a morning or the afternoon, then you dont get so bored and tire quickly. But alas our day came to an end and the boy had a snack in the car and then passed out for the rest of the afternoon. All in all it was a good day.
We had alot of fun. It was also humid and in a way a little sticky. But it was fun. I took my camera so I could get pictures and lots of them. One spot I liked the most and will probably go back to was by the flamingos and their fence. As we were walking to the Children's Zoo so the kiddos could have a little fun, Eli and I stopped beside the fence to see if we could see the flamingos a little closer and we did. It was one of those holes in the wood from where a knot had been, but it was low to the ground. So we squatted/knealt to the ground and looked through. WOW! Amazing colors and we were so close to them. The photographer in me just had to bring out the camera and snap some shots. Yep, I'll be going back to that place.
Eli and I proceeded to the Children's Zoo with the rest of our group. Of course we went to the petting zoo part so that Gavin and Eli could pet the goats. They loved it and had lots of fun. In the middle of the children's zoo they have a nice little stream/fake river where the kids and parents can walk through and play with the rocks and sand. You guessed it it was their favorite part of the day. At the very top of the stream they have a flatter area for the littler ones and it just has little fountains on the ground that they can step on or whatever. I think this is where they got the wettest. Oh well. It was hot.
It we left the Children's Zoo we took a different path to get out. One that I had long forgotten about. Since I was a kid I have always gone to the zoo but as I got older I went less and less, but now that I have a kid (who loves animals and the zoo). Well this path goes straight to the sea lion look out, which is above the sea lion water pit that you can look at below through the windows and it is also the place to see the sea lion show. Well this path, still looks like it did back when. As most of the zoo has been changing over the past years this part doesnt seem like it.
After watching the sea lions swim around for a while we decided to head down to the aquarium to look at all the fish and sea life. Well it came to a point where Eli was asking about some of the fish and what they were and the only thing I could think of was Nemo. The movie, yes that's right. My entire 'teaching' of what the fish were came from Nemo. There were explanations of Nemo's dad, Marlon, and of Dory, the puffer fish and Scarface, and I even explained about the school of fish that Marlon and Dorky come across that help find the path to Sydney. That is when I realized I know alot about the Nemo movie. Which is not the fist movie I have come to know more than most people know about. This is probably because they are Eli's favorite movies.
After being there most of the day playing, walking, talking about all the animals, walking, eating, walking and did I mention walking? We came up on one of the playgrounds for the kiddos to play around some more and wear out a bit more. Us mommies were getting tired and ready to go. Eli and I rode the marry-go-round. He rode on the Zebra and I rode the Manatee. To ride you have to buy tokens and tokens are $1 for one. Sheesh! Yes I had fun but I'd much rather just give them a few quarters since it wasn't even that long of a ride. Oh well.
Just before we left the boys wanted to see the cats. So we stopped off at the lion's hill and looked at them and then went home. Yes I know shame on us, but we were all tired. JoElla and I came to the conclusion that we like the zoo, but spending all day there is tiring and then you dont really want to go back for a while. Whereas if you go stay for a shorter period of time like a morning or the afternoon, then you dont get so bored and tire quickly. But alas our day came to an end and the boy had a snack in the car and then passed out for the rest of the afternoon. All in all it was a good day.
Hugs and Lovies,
Fan, Sara and Elijah
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